बागमती र म

बागमती फोहोर छ
त्यो भन्दा धेरै फोहोर छु म
अनगिन्ती आफै भित्रका डल बोकेको
बागमती भन्दा धेरै कालो मन भएको


डर लाग्छ मलाई बागमती गनायो भन्न
त्यो भन्दा धेरै गुना गनाएको छु म
असमर्तथा को दल दल मा फसेको छु म
तेसैले मेरो शरिर गनायको छ त्यो भन्दा धेरै

म बागमती जस्तो बन्न चाहन्थे
आफु माथिको फोहोर संधै पखाल्न तल्लिन
तर बागमती भन्दा निरिह छु म
आफु भित्रको फोहोर बटुलेर बसेको छु म

यो त्यो (रक्सि)

यो
त्यो
स्वाद फरक
मुल्य फरक
तर नसा त उस्तै
मजा त उस्तै

नाम फरक

दाम फरक

काम त उस्तै

मताइ त उस्तै

बोतल फरक
बिर्को फरक
शान त उस्तै
बदनामि त उस्तै

The end of day

Here the days end again. Every day at its end I feel more unsecured and more alone. I feel now its over and I am on edge of a river that takes everything with it. Here I see everything has taken their speed leaving me far alone. Everything has been changed, everybody are engaged but I am same useless guy with hands open thinking his day will come. I am on doubt of my future with lots of question with no answer. I know I will die one day. But I fear, do people comes on my funereal or I will die the death of a street dog. I am unsecured. Everyday I pray god to take me because I feel I got no reason to live. Everybody is fake who show tear on there eyes with knife on hand. Here I feel nothing is real and nothing has got their real existence.

But with this all I am living my life, I am enjoying my life. I enjoy the presence of people around. I hope my coming days will be mine and I too will take my speed. I will be more determined, more responsible and collect more strength. No matter what I wish I know on core of my heart the same thing is gonna happen. But who cares. I think this is what life mean. Some one has said we can sum up life on three words, IT GOES ON.
All the best for next day.

Fiction (Fantasy)

One day we will die dear
And I hope we will meet there

Where we can say this is our place
With no one else
This time I will not let you go

I will make you listen my word

The world of we two
Your, mine and our
No borders and boundaries
Imagine we will be their.
No society to quarrel
No religion to follow

Imagine that place
With no heaven and hell
Place with language of love
where we will be our god

Dream

I saw a dream this night. You would not believe what I saw. I was holding stool on my bare hand. This morning I just wash my hand twice. Do you believe I was holding stool on my hand and I was enjoying this activity. What does this mean? I just ask some people whether it has some astrological reason. But no they could not answer my question. Now it was my turn to interpret it otherwise that stool will go away from my mind. Today when facebook ask me question 'Whats on your mind?' I was about to write STOOL. A awkward movement I believe.


Don't you think Stool is a part of us or from us and we just hate the way it is. There are many thing/reason which is stinky more than stool or matter of hate but we love it. We take them with us. We take care of them. We enjoy their presence. I think god was just trying to tell me, if I am suppose to hate stool that is from me why don't I hate those thing, why don't I throw those thing from me, why just I enjoy their presence. Don't you think its true. Don't you think we hold such thing that should not be with us. God try to make me remind it this time. Here I am using word try because its his job to remind and its mine to implement in my way.

Rain

I wish it rain today
and wash my pain away

I wish it rain today
and wash my tear away

I wish it rain today
and wash my  bad luck away

I wish it rain today
and wash my frustration away

God can you pour rain today

and wash my life away
 

Beautiful

"Beautiful!! Is this the thing people explain as a beauty?? " It was the first line on my mind when I saw her. It was not like 'I am In love' like situation nor infatuation but yeah I was attracted towards her beauty at the moment. I am not a person who stuck in a matter or subject but how can I erase that face from my mind. Whenever my friends explain the beauty of some lady her face glow on my mind. I make a assumption that girl, my friends are explaining, must be like her. I don't say she is only the beautiful girl left. In fact I have interact with so many beautiful faces but they could not make such impression, not on me, on my mind. Still I am not in love but yeah word "beautiful" make me remind her. I wish I could write a poem on her beauty but I fear words may not be sufficient for that.

ट्रकसाहित्य

• "उकाली र ओरालीमा गुड्छ मेरो गाडी। चोखो माया लाइदेऊ कान्छी किनि दिउँला साडी" - ना २ ख २०८७
• "ड्राइभरको जिन्दगी स्टेरिङको भरमा, एउटी ल्याउने मन थियो जेठी छ घरमा"  -बा १ ख ६१४२
• "आँखाबाट आँसु आएपनि मुस्कान दिएर चढ, तिमी मेरी कान्छी बुढी भएनि भाडा दिएर झर"  -ना ३ ख ९८१६
• "मान्छे कहाँबाट कहाँ पुगिसक्यो, पिइसक्यो ब्रमाण्ड तन्तनी। हामी नेपाली मख्ख छौं, समाई टुप्पी, जनै र कन्दनी" - ना २ ख ५१५४
• "हेर्दा तिमी च्वाँक छौ मायालु, तर के गर्नु; लभलेटर चाहिँ अर्कैलाई लेख्छौ मायालु।"  -ना २ ख ७३०९ 
• "कलम चले अक्षर बन्छ कवि बने कविता। धनी मररे श्रद्धान्जली गरिब मरे रमिता।" - ना २ ख २४६१
• ."१३ को फूल ८९ को माला, पछाडि झुण्डिने ड्राइभरको साला"- को १ ख १३८९
• "लक्ष्यबिनाको जिन्दगी, गन्तव्यबिनाको यात्रा सँधै अपूरो हुन्छ साथी" -ना ३ ख ९२७६
• "तिमी छुट्टियौ रोएर के काम? दाग लागिसक्यो धोएर के काम? आफ्नो बनाइसक्यो उसले अब मलाई छोएर के काम?" -ना २ ख ८५३० 
• "पसिनाले साटेको आधार हुँ म, जसलाई मैंले हँसाउनु छ। ढुङ्गा प्रहार नगर मलाई ंैले मजदुरलाई बचाउनु छ"- ना ३ ख ७४२०
• "नेताज्यू, देखियो नयाँ नेपाल पनि। म त खाइइइइरन्छु नि !"  -ना ४ ख ३३८२ 
• "टाढाबाट हिँडे वीरजञ्ज पुगेँ पथलैयामा भो श्रृङ्गार, बर्दिबासमा आँखा जुध्यो भारदहमा भो प्यार।" -ना २ ख २७६६
• "गाडी स्पिडमा छ ब्रेक तर हान्न बाँकी छ। तिमी मेरी भइसक्यौ तर सिन्दुर हाल्न बाँकी छ"। -ना २ ख ५७५० 
• "आँसु दिनेलाई हाँसो देऊ साथ दिनेलाई हात। माया दिनेलाई मुस्कान देऊ धोका दिनेलाई लात"  -ना ४ ख ७०२ 
• "मुर्खहरूबाट प्रशंसाको राग सुन्नुभन्दा बुद्धिमानी व्यक्तिको गाली सुन्नु बेस" - ना ३ ख ८१३५
• "पहाडको बाटो ड्राइभरको मर्म बुझेन कसैले, ट्रकमा जाऊँ है भनेको कान्छीलाई लगेछ बसैले" -ना ३ ख ७०६०
• "मुसुक्क मस्की नहेर कान्छी हरनको तालैमा, अचेलको ड्राइभर उत्ताउलो हुन्छ किस खाला गालैमा" -ना २ ख ८२४८

• "बादलमा बादल जुध्यो भने पानी पर्छ अरे, आँखामा आँखा जुध्यो भने लभ पर्छ अरे"
• "किन्न पनि गारो भयो श्रीमतिलाई फरिया, पहाडमा गाडी पुग्दा निराश भए भरिया" 
• "सबैजना एकोहोरिएपछि मेरो के लाग्छ? गणेशमानका भेडाहरूलाई मेरो सलाम छ।"
• "फेविकोल गमले टाँस दर्‍होसँग जोड्ने भए, आइ लभ यु फिर्ता गर मलाई छोड्ने भए" 
• "सतीले सरापेको यो देशमा, नेताहरू चिप्लेका छन् लिगलिगे रेसमा"
• "म सडकको राजा तिमी मेरी मनकी रानि। गणतन्त्र नेपालमा के होला हाम्रो प्रेम कहानी"
• "जनकपुरको माछा मलेखुमा पिस । अरूलाई मुस्कान ड्राइभरलाई किस "
• "ब्रेक लगाए गाडी रोकिन्छ, कन्डम लगाए एड्स जोगिन्छ "
• "गाडी चलाऊ होसमा , कन्डम लगाऊ जोसमा"
• "जल्ने जलिरहन्छ, २३४२ चलिरहन्छ"
• "ओ ब्रो बालै भएन, स्वास्नी पोइला गै थाहै भएन " 
• "वान वान टर्निङ, वान वान वाइफ, ड्राइभरको जिन्दगी गोल्डेन लाइफ"
• " तरुनी मुसुक्कै, पैसा भुसुक्कै "
• " श्रीमती राख्नु टिपटप, दुइटा बच्चापछि फुलिस्टप "
• " आँखा लाइस् कि जुत्ता खाइस"

Happy new Year Bikram Sambat (B.S) 2069

I want to wish all of you a very Happy New Year (Nepali Year) 2069

      May God Pashupatinath bless all of you by his divine grace......
                                              CHEERS

No I cant Live Like This

no I cannot
no aim
no future
no I cannot live like this

the say I cannot
I know I cannot
but I cannot help myself
I cannot

Emilie Autumn Lyrics " God Help Me"

God help me
I don't see
How I can live this way
Any I don't know why he's
Touching me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me
Won't you lend me your protection and help me

God help me
And just maybe
I'll learn to help myself
Speak to me
Don't leave me
He's burning me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me
Won't you lend me your protection and help me

Am I guilty or am I just waiting around
For the tide to come in
So the truth can come out
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin
And commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world
I'd be sitting on top of the world

Places everyone, this is a test
Throw your stones, do your damage
All the world is a judge
But that doesn't compare
To what I do to myself when you're not there
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin
And commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world
I'd be sitting on top of the world

Don't make me choose
I've got much to lose
For I am with you
And also with you
For I am with you
And also with you