चौतारिमा बस्ने त्यो पागल आइमाई
सायद चाडैनै आमा बन्दै छ
चाडैनै कसैलाई जन्मदिने छ उसले
उसको पेटको बच्चा पनि त आतुर छ
यो धर्तिमा ओर्लन
खुल्ला आकाशमुनी सास फेर्न
तेस्लाई के थाहा उस्ले फेर्ने
सासमा ओक्स्सिजनको भन्दा  बढी मात्रा गरिबीको हुनेछ
बाबुको ठेगान  नभएको उ कुनै मूलुकको नागरिक हुनेछैन
अनि उसले धाहा पाउने छ
उसले सोचे जस्तो रहेनछ यो पृथिबी
आमाको गर्भ जस्तो सुरक्षित काहा छ र यहाँ 

Shiva Panchakshari Mantra Strotra

नागेन्द्रहराया त्रिलोचनाय

भास्मंगारागाया महेश्वराय

नित्याय शुद्धाय दिगम्बराय

तस्मै नकाराय नमः शिवाय .. १

मन्दाकिनी सलिला चंदना चर्चिताय
नंदिश्वारा प्रमाथानाथा महेश्वराय
मंदारापुश्पा बहुपुश्ह्पा सुपुजिताया
तस्मै मकाराय नमः शिवाय .. २

शिवाय गौरी वादानाब्जवृन्दा
सूर्याय दक्शाध्वारा नशाकाया
श्रीनिलाकंथाया व्रुश्ढ़वाजय
तस्मै शिकाराय नमः शिवाय .. ३

वसिष्ठ कुम्भोद्भावा गौतामार्य
मुनीन्द्र देवार्चिता शेखाराया .
चन्द्रर्कावैश्वनारा लोचानाया
तस्मै वकाराय नमः शिवाय .. ४

यक्शास्वरुपाया जताधाराया
पिनाकहस्ताया सनातनाय
दिव्याय देवाय दिगम्बराय
तस्मै यकाराय नमः शिवाय .. ५

Again

This is not an end
I will come again
Don't lose your faith
I am not dead yet

It seems I am not with
But touch your heart
I am always with you
Taking care of you

Yeah I am not good enough
But I am not bad too
You know me much more
You are always with me here

To whom it may concern

You may not think that's bad
But I can't digest your nudity
You may not feel shame
But I feel uncomfortable


C'mon you are not only one
World are full of idiots
Though You show smartness
I know what you own

You should know
sometime a words hurt
You should know
Idiotic act is not enough


Your loud voice
Cannot make my voice down
Your those gaze
Cannot make me look down

I think I am dying

I am not drunk
I am not intoxicated
But my head is spinning
I think I am dying

I am inhaling air
I am exhaling air
But my lungs are empty
I think I am dying

I am seeing
I am hearing
But my brain is not getting
I think I am dying

I am tangible
I am visible
But world is not caring
I think I am dying

Fear

 According to  dictionary fear stand for a strong, uncontrollable, unpleasant emotion caused by actual or perceived danger or threat. Every living beings posses this emotion. If anyone say that they do not fear of anything then it should be a dead body or they are just lying or may be they don't know what actually fear is. People get fear because of unknown thing or forecast of result mostly. It may be ghost, darkness, forecast of unpleasant circumstances, career etc. Here I want to say is that we fear of the things that does not exist. People may define fear as the result of cowardliness but I think its a natural phenomenon.

Talking about living things other than human beings, mostly they got fear of death. For them being alive is every thing and their whole life is dedicated to make themselves and their offspring secure from death. Their physical and mental structure are developed in a way that they can save their life from death on best possible way. For them too feed themselves and save themselves for being feed of other is first and last reason of being on universe. So they have only a reason to fear.

As human beings are advance, their imagination power are wider. They have the potential of forecasting future so for them death is not only a reason to fear of. Human beings fear of  every minor things. For them the reason of fear start from individual, family matter along social matter and goes on with the matter of whole country including politics, living status and so on. As human has unlimited wants and needs, they have unlimited reason to fear. They fear of past because their past may hamper their present or their future. They fear of present because they think they may not have done their best for better future and are not meeting the same result they use to produce on past. They fear of future because they forecast that they would not get what they want on coming days or they may not get better opportunity or career.

At last I want say that you do not fear because you are coward, you fear because you are alive. You fear because you are breathing. You fear because you want to do something. You fear because you are intelligent creation of nature. Only the thing you should do is, walk a step ahead of fear and I am sure you will do your best.

Have a great day ahead. Thank you.

That Girl

Every time I go there, at backyard of Pashupatinath temple, for arati at evening I hope to see that girl on her regular seat. I have not seen her on another place as if she has booked that place. A girl with smiling, not beautiful but not ugly too, long face like any other Aryan girl with pointed nose. Every evening she is ready for arati with her friend/s before I visit there. And I choose my usual seat some meters far from her.

That girl have some magic. Sometime I just feel that she is staring at me and I cant stop myself doing the same. I don't know what the exact word for such feelings are named as but I feel good to be there with that feeling. I wish arati there never end and time just get paused there but time just flies away. It just feel I just saw her a second before but I realize its been hours and I just got smile, a rare one, on my lips.

I have never ever dare to talk with her because I fear the same activity or same feelings may not be repeated when I just get near her. I am happy with this situation where I just feel good to see her without knowing her. I just want to enjoy her presence rather her company.

Hope I will get chance to see her again very soon. :)

Its raining

Its raining outside,
And this drive me to past,
Remind me our first rain together,
We use to get wet on rain and go wild,

Every time it rain,
It make me remind that day,
And your insane laugh,
We were crazy, shy and on high,


But  day are not same today,
You are not here to make me laugh,
The rain is not same,
No one is here to push me there,

BUDDHA JAYANTI

Courtesy:  Wikipedia

 Its BUDDHA JAYANTI, popularly known as BUDDHA PURNIMA, since it occurred in full moon day. It is believed as the birthday of  LORD BUDDHA, founder of Buddhism. I want to wish all my readers a very happy BUDDHA JAYANTI.

The real name of Buddha was Siddhārtha Gautama (Sanskrit: सिद्धार्थ गौतम; Pali: Siddhattha Gotama) who
was a spiritual teacher who founded Buddhism. In most Buddhist traditions, he is regarded as the Supreme Buddha (P. sammāsambuddha, S. samyaksaṃbuddha) of our age, "Buddha" meaning "awakened one" or "the enlightened one."  The time of his birth and death are uncertain: most early 20th-century historians dated his lifetime as c. 563 BCE to 483 BCE, but more recent opinion dates his death to between 486 and 483 BCE or, according to some, between 411 and 400 BCE. . By tradition, Gautama is said to have been born in the small state of Kapilavastu, now in Nepal.

म

लफङ्गो म
पागल म
एक्लो
एकलकांटे म

सबैको उपदेश
सुन्नु  पर्ने मैले
काम बिग्र्यो
सहनु पर्ने मैले

धर्तिको बोज
भागवानको झोक
घरको रोग
सबैको टोक

नरुचाहिएको म
न हास्न जान्ने
न रुन
एकोहोरो म


कहिले काहिं
सोध्छु अफैलाई
को म
कस्तो म

P.S: यो म म होईन :P

Myself

I don't want you on my side

I don't want you hold my hand

I can walk on that road myself

I don't need you or any body else

I know I am not strong enough

I know that road is not secure enough

I want  to give myself a try

I wish to know I can survive

I just can hope I can do that

Please don't pray for what I want

I don't need your permission though

Don't you want me to go??

ॐ

ॐ असतोमा सद्गमय ।
तमसोमा ज्योतिर्गमय ।
 मृत्योर्मा अमृतं गमय ।।
ॐ शान्ति शान्ति शान्तिः ।।

Translation 
Lead Us From the Unreal To the Real,
Lead Us From Darkness To Light,
Lead Us From Death To Immortality,
Let There Be Peace Peace Peace.

I yam what I yam

One day one of my friend told me that I look like one of the ugly (in his thought) character (I think strongest) of famous Hindu epic. Here I should say my friend is a smart guy and here I do not want to describe him as a character of some epic or story. I just told him that he is cent percent right and I know what I am better then him. I just told him that every person know what he is on core of heart and it is not necessary to describe. I feel, friend are those who should try to make their friend know what good thing they posses rather describing what the are not. Here I am not saying come on describe good thing about me but next time when you are going to meet some of your near friend please do not say them what they are not because they know what the are but your words may make them more weak or lead them to depression. Your duty is to make your friend feel good at least when you are with them rather frustrate.

Here what I want to say is every person know what they are and your some bad words make them more confident that what they are not. But I am happy that he describe me as a character of such a great epic. People remember him for what  he is. At least he make a place on history and its not a simple thing. Everyone has not such ability to be remembered for thousands of year.

Have a great day. Feel good for what you are and remember you may be the ideal for someone.

P.S: I could not stop writing this. I just want to say sorry to whom it may concern. Stay cool.

बागमती र म

बागमती फोहोर छ
त्यो भन्दा धेरै फोहोर छु म
अनगिन्ती आफै भित्रका डल बोकेको
बागमती भन्दा धेरै कालो मन भएको


डर लाग्छ मलाई बागमती गनायो भन्न
त्यो भन्दा धेरै गुना गनाएको छु म
असमर्तथा को दल दल मा फसेको छु म
तेसैले मेरो शरिर गनायको छ त्यो भन्दा धेरै

म बागमती जस्तो बन्न चाहन्थे
आफु माथिको फोहोर संधै पखाल्न तल्लिन
तर बागमती भन्दा निरिह छु म
आफु भित्रको फोहोर बटुलेर बसेको छु म

यो त्यो (रक्सि)

यो
त्यो
स्वाद फरक
मुल्य फरक
तर नसा त उस्तै
मजा त उस्तै

नाम फरक

दाम फरक

काम त उस्तै

मताइ त उस्तै

बोतल फरक
बिर्को फरक
शान त उस्तै
बदनामि त उस्तै

The end of day

Here the days end again. Every day at its end I feel more unsecured and more alone. I feel now its over and I am on edge of a river that takes everything with it. Here I see everything has taken their speed leaving me far alone. Everything has been changed, everybody are engaged but I am same useless guy with hands open thinking his day will come. I am on doubt of my future with lots of question with no answer. I know I will die one day. But I fear, do people comes on my funereal or I will die the death of a street dog. I am unsecured. Everyday I pray god to take me because I feel I got no reason to live. Everybody is fake who show tear on there eyes with knife on hand. Here I feel nothing is real and nothing has got their real existence.

But with this all I am living my life, I am enjoying my life. I enjoy the presence of people around. I hope my coming days will be mine and I too will take my speed. I will be more determined, more responsible and collect more strength. No matter what I wish I know on core of my heart the same thing is gonna happen. But who cares. I think this is what life mean. Some one has said we can sum up life on three words, IT GOES ON.
All the best for next day.

Fiction (Fantasy)

One day we will die dear
And I hope we will meet there

Where we can say this is our place
With no one else
This time I will not let you go

I will make you listen my word

The world of we two
Your, mine and our
No borders and boundaries
Imagine we will be their.
No society to quarrel
No religion to follow

Imagine that place
With no heaven and hell
Place with language of love
where we will be our god

Dream

I saw a dream this night. You would not believe what I saw. I was holding stool on my bare hand. This morning I just wash my hand twice. Do you believe I was holding stool on my hand and I was enjoying this activity. What does this mean? I just ask some people whether it has some astrological reason. But no they could not answer my question. Now it was my turn to interpret it otherwise that stool will go away from my mind. Today when facebook ask me question 'Whats on your mind?' I was about to write STOOL. A awkward movement I believe.


Don't you think Stool is a part of us or from us and we just hate the way it is. There are many thing/reason which is stinky more than stool or matter of hate but we love it. We take them with us. We take care of them. We enjoy their presence. I think god was just trying to tell me, if I am suppose to hate stool that is from me why don't I hate those thing, why don't I throw those thing from me, why just I enjoy their presence. Don't you think its true. Don't you think we hold such thing that should not be with us. God try to make me remind it this time. Here I am using word try because its his job to remind and its mine to implement in my way.

Rain

I wish it rain today
and wash my pain away

I wish it rain today
and wash my tear away

I wish it rain today
and wash my  bad luck away

I wish it rain today
and wash my frustration away

God can you pour rain today

and wash my life away
 

Beautiful

"Beautiful!! Is this the thing people explain as a beauty?? " It was the first line on my mind when I saw her. It was not like 'I am In love' like situation nor infatuation but yeah I was attracted towards her beauty at the moment. I am not a person who stuck in a matter or subject but how can I erase that face from my mind. Whenever my friends explain the beauty of some lady her face glow on my mind. I make a assumption that girl, my friends are explaining, must be like her. I don't say she is only the beautiful girl left. In fact I have interact with so many beautiful faces but they could not make such impression, not on me, on my mind. Still I am not in love but yeah word "beautiful" make me remind her. I wish I could write a poem on her beauty but I fear words may not be sufficient for that.