Again

This is not an end
I will come again
Don't lose your faith
I am not dead yet

It seems I am not with
But touch your heart
I am always with you
Taking care of you

Yeah I am not good enough
But I am not bad too
You know me much more
You are always with me here

To whom it may concern

You may not think that's bad
But I can't digest your nudity
You may not feel shame
But I feel uncomfortable


C'mon you are not only one
World are full of idiots
Though You show smartness
I know what you own

You should know
sometime a words hurt
You should know
Idiotic act is not enough


Your loud voice
Cannot make my voice down
Your those gaze
Cannot make me look down

I think I am dying

I am not drunk
I am not intoxicated
But my head is spinning
I think I am dying

I am inhaling air
I am exhaling air
But my lungs are empty
I think I am dying

I am seeing
I am hearing
But my brain is not getting
I think I am dying

I am tangible
I am visible
But world is not caring
I think I am dying

Fear

 According to  dictionary fear stand for a strong, uncontrollable, unpleasant emotion caused by actual or perceived danger or threat. Every living beings posses this emotion. If anyone say that they do not fear of anything then it should be a dead body or they are just lying or may be they don't know what actually fear is. People get fear because of unknown thing or forecast of result mostly. It may be ghost, darkness, forecast of unpleasant circumstances, career etc. Here I want to say is that we fear of the things that does not exist. People may define fear as the result of cowardliness but I think its a natural phenomenon.

Talking about living things other than human beings, mostly they got fear of death. For them being alive is every thing and their whole life is dedicated to make themselves and their offspring secure from death. Their physical and mental structure are developed in a way that they can save their life from death on best possible way. For them too feed themselves and save themselves for being feed of other is first and last reason of being on universe. So they have only a reason to fear.

As human beings are advance, their imagination power are wider. They have the potential of forecasting future so for them death is not only a reason to fear of. Human beings fear of  every minor things. For them the reason of fear start from individual, family matter along social matter and goes on with the matter of whole country including politics, living status and so on. As human has unlimited wants and needs, they have unlimited reason to fear. They fear of past because their past may hamper their present or their future. They fear of present because they think they may not have done their best for better future and are not meeting the same result they use to produce on past. They fear of future because they forecast that they would not get what they want on coming days or they may not get better opportunity or career.

At last I want say that you do not fear because you are coward, you fear because you are alive. You fear because you are breathing. You fear because you want to do something. You fear because you are intelligent creation of nature. Only the thing you should do is, walk a step ahead of fear and I am sure you will do your best.

Have a great day ahead. Thank you.

That Girl

Every time I go there, at backyard of Pashupatinath temple, for arati at evening I hope to see that girl on her regular seat. I have not seen her on another place as if she has booked that place. A girl with smiling, not beautiful but not ugly too, long face like any other Aryan girl with pointed nose. Every evening she is ready for arati with her friend/s before I visit there. And I choose my usual seat some meters far from her.

That girl have some magic. Sometime I just feel that she is staring at me and I cant stop myself doing the same. I don't know what the exact word for such feelings are named as but I feel good to be there with that feeling. I wish arati there never end and time just get paused there but time just flies away. It just feel I just saw her a second before but I realize its been hours and I just got smile, a rare one, on my lips.

I have never ever dare to talk with her because I fear the same activity or same feelings may not be repeated when I just get near her. I am happy with this situation where I just feel good to see her without knowing her. I just want to enjoy her presence rather her company.

Hope I will get chance to see her again very soon. :)

Its raining

Its raining outside,
And this drive me to past,
Remind me our first rain together,
We use to get wet on rain and go wild,

Every time it rain,
It make me remind that day,
And your insane laugh,
We were crazy, shy and on high,


But  day are not same today,
You are not here to make me laugh,
The rain is not same,
No one is here to push me there,

BUDDHA JAYANTI

Courtesy:  Wikipedia

 Its BUDDHA JAYANTI, popularly known as BUDDHA PURNIMA, since it occurred in full moon day. It is believed as the birthday of  LORD BUDDHA, founder of Buddhism. I want to wish all my readers a very happy BUDDHA JAYANTI.

The real name of Buddha was Siddhārtha Gautama (Sanskrit: सिद्धार्थ गौतम; Pali: Siddhattha Gotama) who
was a spiritual teacher who founded Buddhism. In most Buddhist traditions, he is regarded as the Supreme Buddha (P. sammāsambuddha, S. samyaksaṃbuddha) of our age, "Buddha" meaning "awakened one" or "the enlightened one."  The time of his birth and death are uncertain: most early 20th-century historians dated his lifetime as c. 563 BCE to 483 BCE, but more recent opinion dates his death to between 486 and 483 BCE or, according to some, between 411 and 400 BCE. . By tradition, Gautama is said to have been born in the small state of Kapilavastu, now in Nepal.

म

लफङ्गो म
पागल म
एक्लो
एकलकांटे म

सबैको उपदेश
सुन्नु  पर्ने मैले
काम बिग्र्यो
सहनु पर्ने मैले

धर्तिको बोज
भागवानको झोक
घरको रोग
सबैको टोक

नरुचाहिएको म
न हास्न जान्ने
न रुन
एकोहोरो म


कहिले काहिं
सोध्छु अफैलाई
को म
कस्तो म

P.S: यो म म होईन :P

Myself

I don't want you on my side

I don't want you hold my hand

I can walk on that road myself

I don't need you or any body else

I know I am not strong enough

I know that road is not secure enough

I want  to give myself a try

I wish to know I can survive

I just can hope I can do that

Please don't pray for what I want

I don't need your permission though

Don't you want me to go??

ॐ

ॐ असतोमा सद्गमय ।
तमसोमा ज्योतिर्गमय ।
 मृत्योर्मा अमृतं गमय ।।
ॐ शान्ति शान्ति शान्तिः ।।

Translation 
Lead Us From the Unreal To the Real,
Lead Us From Darkness To Light,
Lead Us From Death To Immortality,
Let There Be Peace Peace Peace.

I yam what I yam

One day one of my friend told me that I look like one of the ugly (in his thought) character (I think strongest) of famous Hindu epic. Here I should say my friend is a smart guy and here I do not want to describe him as a character of some epic or story. I just told him that he is cent percent right and I know what I am better then him. I just told him that every person know what he is on core of heart and it is not necessary to describe. I feel, friend are those who should try to make their friend know what good thing they posses rather describing what the are not. Here I am not saying come on describe good thing about me but next time when you are going to meet some of your near friend please do not say them what they are not because they know what the are but your words may make them more weak or lead them to depression. Your duty is to make your friend feel good at least when you are with them rather frustrate.

Here what I want to say is every person know what they are and your some bad words make them more confident that what they are not. But I am happy that he describe me as a character of such a great epic. People remember him for what  he is. At least he make a place on history and its not a simple thing. Everyone has not such ability to be remembered for thousands of year.

Have a great day. Feel good for what you are and remember you may be the ideal for someone.

P.S: I could not stop writing this. I just want to say sorry to whom it may concern. Stay cool.